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anjing hutan bicara padaku pagi tadi ciumnya tangkap gerakmu di bukit, katanya gerammu ingin si rusa tua bijak mati aku yang buta meraba-raba, mengendus-endus mawas diri adakah angin menerabas hutan membawa aroma busuk itu kemari? aku menghardik si gagak hitam sial yang parau, oh kau burung bangkai! meski nyata kucium kebohongan yang memuakkan itu tetap saja akumu masih menutup-nutupi Hakim, katamu? hakim palsu, begitu? penipu! cih. kau budak dewa yang kau nista kau alas kaki dewi yang kau najis     ah malas! baiknya aku pergi meringkuk merenung dalam gua gelap yang pengap yang dindingnya maha mendengar dan melihat  yang lantainya mengandung racun seperti hantu   dan di ujung nafas aku bertanya-tanya,   kau yang bermain kata-kata namun tak pernah ada  kau yang congkak ingin selalu dipuja dimana tepa selira yang pernah kau sumpah? penipu! cih.

I know it's never be that easy to make it as what as our expectation I really know there are sorrow and worst.. But here we are, holding hands together to reach the ending of the day no matter how the result we have now but the thing is, we touch the process, and we are in progress.. I keep on my mind this paradox:  'when God leads you to the edge of the cliff only one of these two things will happen: He will catch you when you fall,  or He will teach you how to fly!' Keep the good spirit while you Jump! Buitenzorg , 2010.

I always imagine Hope is the light of Sun (whether sunrise nor sunset). *from what i see, the light of sun is a brilliant idea as the symbol of Hope. Sun always reminds me whatever happened (or whatever will happen in the future) is a matter of choice in Hope. And always being sure that whatever I chose has been the best one in hope, Hope around the light. And at the end, as long as light is still in the air, Hope is together with me. *that's why i am so thanking to my parents for giving me a birth name: Star :) Jakarta, Hoping .

the only thing i can figure about you is, you are the only person who never be wrong and the rest you will always be right person the only thing i can chapture about you is, you are the one who makes the rules and the rest you are the leader I dont love you that big everyday sometimes i even forgot about you but one thing i can't hide from you is, you dont know how much you mean to me. to: Pap, on your birthday.