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For me (and my Husband for sure), the day of Sasha 's first preschool is one of the biggest moments in our life. We put ourselves to be our 2.5yo daughter's side in that special day. Yesterday on the trial day, the staff at Kinderworld Montessori kindly guided me through the transition. There are Ms.Reni and Ms.Ratna stand along with us together keep on watching Sasha by starting to mingle and adapting with her new cute friends. As a part of the programs that every kids have a special time touring entering every class so they become familiar to every activities, the teacher and me following those kids walked through the new classroom to see the toys, art projects and books. We could immediately see it was a wonderful place, fun, stimulating, safe and colourful. The next day after that trial, i passed my daughter's hand along to the school bus that picked her up on the rainy morning . she wore her blue flanel uniform, nice shoes, delicious lunch that i made i...

Pada akhirnya semua yang tak sempat kita akhiri memberi jejak  untuk pandu langkah berikutnya Aku mencintamu hingga tak lagi layak aku sebut itu sebagai cinta Aku merindumu hingga remuk hingga tak layak lagi aku artikan itu sebagai rindu Lenyapnya rasa raga ini bersahutan dengan semua yang tak sempat kita akhiri. Sayang. “aku di persimpangan” katamu waktu itu. Tatapmu kosong, wajahmu hampa Sementara aku menahan rasa, aku menahan rasa dan aku menahan rasa.  Hingga kau berjalan pergi, pergi, pergi, enggan berpaling, tidak juga berhenti,  Dan aku masih menahan rasa. Bodohnya.. Tubuhmu yang pernah menemaniku bersisihan kugapai tiada lagi berwujud Jemarimu yang menguatkan kugenggam tiada lagi hangat  Bisikmu yang memanja di telingapun sirna tiada lagi bergeming Inilah rindu yang tak pantas itu, belenggu yang membui, bui yang membelenggu Oh apapun kau wahai dewi kehidupan,  Bolehkan aku mengaguminya. Sekali lagi saja....

A huge dreams haunting me They don't event let me feel free for a second but somehow i do enjoy i t ..because I'm Ready! A huge moment grab my energy and i let them covering me i need it for my future future that i meant to be! Oh Lord, i put my spirit on You .Amen. Jakarta.

It was nothing  I would be never know how failed and how succeed it was  sin or bless Just nothing, .. if i can not wait 'till it become something! I know things do change as people do Even a war will be a glory sometimes in the future Nothing left to be regret, live must go ahead I am a person who has many steps forward I am a woman who has many good things that others don't I am one of these people who have been many through for a better life And, do i have any reason to not say 'Thanks'? No :) -4 days before leaving Jakarta

'I wonder what I'm gonna be in the future...' Those words simply haunted my thought several years ago when i was still in the college. And when i got everything I own present, (still) i wonder what is next: need more challenges, how i should go on. Coz I'm now thinking that it's probably time to step out from this very comfortable environment and find my position out there where I can make a difference to the world.  After all these years working, I'm really thinking that I should start applying the little things I know to contribute to the people in need. I dont care am i going to get more pay then previous or just simply in the name of 'get more experiences'. I know, i t sounds really idealistic, but this's the truth, I start worrying whether I'll ever be able to give anything.  Fiuuh..what a hard. It might  be better to take a  little break from my routine probably will help to think more clearly.  Hopefully the best thing will com...

It's rain out there. The waters falling just like horses haunted by ghosts. And I am here, waiting for the miracle among the sounds. This anger is killing me. ..while choosing not to coming back. Singapore, in storm.