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Being a mother i got the greatest job in the world; raising humans By sacrificing my body, my time and my mental health will be worth it in the end because life isn't about me anymore.  Helping my kids through all the things life throws them, while also lifting them up so they can reach for the moon (even finally they grab the stars!)  For me here’s what being a mom is all about; —someone who always being there and always be ready no matter what— — the shoulder to cry on and the reason to laugh out load at the same time — — the continuous cheerleader to never give up for every ups and downs experiences — — the familiar hand to hold and the never ending love — — the unbreakable foundation — Motherdhood is truly a privilege. And thank you for my two adorable kids for choosing me as your Mom

when rules blocking beliefs ..passion shackled ..no way out then i prefer not to choose and let the drums scream for the eyes seeing and  ears hearing   and the face reflect honesty.. life is not about profit and loss and I have done my part

Alun melodi gitarmu apik kudengar Dentingnya manjakan indra dan rasa Manis wajahmu di balik rambut tergerai Dan kedipmu sinari malunya hati Kau hantar senyum di ujung bibir Tersipu-sipu kulahap serakah segala yang ada Garis sempurnamu basuh luruhnya lara Kubersimpuh dalam syukur jika kaulah sang takdir Binar kerlipmu ajakku berdansa penuh kilau Ragaku melayang bercinta bersimponi Akulah arus air dan kaulah suara-suara itu Akulah cahaya mentari dan kaulah sang pendar mozaik Oh lelakiku, Aku mencintaimu-untuk yang kesekian kali Malam minggu di atas balkon, Menunggumu si teman hidup

standing on your side: breath the same air on the same path staring at the same corner that you see? wearing the colour you choosed: hold the same blanket on the floor sleeping under neath of the same stars? hoping for the same wishes: stick together forever and after.. may i? Jogja: while dreaming of you

It's 11.15 PM and i just reached home. Thinking about many things to do and still have to continue alot of works here, behind my laptop. It's so pressure for sure. While decide to laying down on the coach, my thoughts flying back to the morning i was. Something bad happened to the system and i can not fix it perfectly. And the worst is, deep inside of my mind i'm really blaming my self and feel so stuck. Ouh! It was really uncomfortable for me to take the whole day.  And now i can hear the ticking clock. I let my body feel every second of this emptiness. What a tough moment. In the middle of my chaos, smoothly and slowly my mouth whisper, dear God, for better for worst, thank You..You made my day.. I take my deep breath and release it. Many things i got and i call this the lesson i have to learnt. From now on i choose to let my self do the best, and let God do the rest. It makes me feel more free.  And why not? Jakarta, while listening to ...

Everyday, i need to: * learn to be brave and to be confident * reduce my ego * courage to present myself * more thanking * speak out my mind and to compromise * push my self wisely * experience a meaning of freedom * keeping up on praying I just let my slelf to tell my self: where there's a will there's a way.

In the middle of my hectic time, i found this to share: There are times when we must go through negative situations. Maybe people say something negative about us, or they show rejection or even resentment against us. In such situations, it may be difficult to stay positive. We may be inclined to react negatively to them. That won’t do us any good though; doing so will just make the situation worse. People may behave even more negatively to us. Our day would be filled with anger and disappointment. At the end, nobody wins. Though it’s not easy, it’s important to stay positive in negative situations. Beat the negative situations by staying positive. Here are 15 tips on how to do it; pick the ones that work for you: Never respond when you are not calm. If you are not sure that you are calm,  don’t  respond. Take time to calm yourself down first. Take a deep breath as a first step to calm yourself down. Speak in gentle tone to reduce the tension of the sit...