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'I wonder what I'm gonna be in the future...' Those words simply haunted my thought several years ago when i was still in the college. And when i got everything I own present, (still) i wonder what is next: need more challenges, how i should go on. Coz I'm now thinking that it's probably time to step out from this very comfortable environment and find my position out there where I can make a difference to the world.  After all these years working, I'm really thinking that I should start applying the little things I know to contribute to the people in need. I dont care am i going to get more pay then previous or just simply in the name of 'get more experiences'. I know, i t sounds really idealistic, but this's the truth, I start worrying whether I'll ever be able to give anything.  Fiuuh..what a hard. It might  be better to take a  little break from my routine probably will help to think more clearly.  Hopefully the best thing will com...

After all this long day, After facing many characters and many random conditions, I needs special time to be just me and my self. And after this one whole chaos week and tough moments, I turned off my handphone and make sure to lock my door. Being accompanied by candle light with enjoying my tears that smoothly came out. I am writing here. Waiting for the sounds of God (hopefully), that might talk just for my self. In this silent room and in this deeply sweet atmosphere,  I said to my self, 'take a good rest tonight, let God do the rest' Jakarta, while missing you.