being mature

It's 11.15 PM and i just reached home.

Thinking about many things to do and still have to continue alot of works here, behind my laptop. It's so pressure for sure. While decide to laying down on the coach, my thoughts flying back to the morning i was. Something bad happened to the system and i can not fix it perfectly. And the worst is, deep inside of my mind i'm really blaming my self and feel so stuck.

Ouh! It was really uncomfortable for me to take the whole day. 

And now i can hear the ticking clock. I let my body feel every second of this emptiness. What a tough moment.

In the middle of my chaos, smoothly and slowly my mouth whisper, dear God, for better for worst, thank You..You made my day..

I take my deep breath and release it. Many things i got and i call this the lesson i have to learnt. From now on i choose to let my self do the best, and let God do the rest. It makes me feel more free. 
And why not?


Jakarta, while listening to 'hello by beyonce'.