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Bagaimana aku terduduk dalam diam ini adalah bisumu Bagaimana aku sesak menunggu ini adalah pahitmu Kita bukan sesuatu yang saling bersisihan, tidak pula bertindihan Kita tidak ada untuk saling menyeimbangkan rasa Kita hadir untuk berseberangan Jauh, teramat jauh  Meski kita,  tak terpisahkan

Sungguh sore ini tak jauh berbeda dengan sore biasanya. Hanya saja temaram mentari begitu jingga hingga wajahmu berkilau, indah. Kau bilang kau tak bisa lupakan genggaman ini, genggaman di ketepian ini, di tepi sulitnya aku menapak jika kau tak ada di samping, jujur. Ah ya, ternyata kau bukan milikku lagi. Terkadang aku malu, aku bukanlah siapa-siapa yang tak seharusnya menaruh harap. Aku cuma, aku sekadar. Tapi baiklah, kalimat ini sudah kukumul sekian musim, walau lancang mungkin untuk kau dengar; aku ingin menapak lagi, bersamamu. Malang, 2010

'..keep watch over the speed of your words when speaking, the character of your handwriting, the quality of your eye contact, the quickness of your mind to return to center with each distracting thought..' Malang, 2010

A good friend of mine visited me several days ago, he asked me how to thread a woman like a lady. These conversation might be not as complete as what we have discussed, but here's the bottom line: friend: 'i've plan to propose my girlfriend' me: 'dear God! that's sweet!' friend: 'but i don't want to say it directly, i want to do something memorable' me: 'well..we have many ways..' friend: 'such?' me: 'bring her to the romantic place, give her a huge surprise, do something she wants..' friend: 'but don't you think that's common?' me: 'oh, really? but those common things keep bring women flying when they got proposed' friend: 'hmm, i think i have an idea' me: 'you tell me' friend: 'with flower' me: laugh..'but that's more common' friend: 'not, if i lay her down in a bed of rosses' me: 'seriously?' friend: 'y...

It was nothing  I would be never know how failed and how succeed it was  sin or bless Just nothing, .. if i can not wait 'till it become something! I know things do change as people do Even a war will be a glory sometimes in the future Nothing left to be regret, live must go ahead I am a person who has many steps forward I am a woman who has many good things that others don't I am one of these people who have been many through for a better life And, do i have any reason to not say 'Thanks'? No :) -4 days before leaving Jakarta